It seems like it is time to write year-end summaries and plans for the next one, but it looks like I am not up for that.

As this insane 2025 is wrapping up, I decided to do everything in my power to turn my life upside down. Usually, when I hear 'turn your life around', I imagine dropping all old habits and passions and choosing completely new ones. But it turns out I actually have enough strength to combine what seems incompatible at first glance: startups and poetry; the feeling that my life is meaningless and the love of living it; a certain shyness and this blog. And recently I added acting classes, and next week I have a five-day acting intensive.

So I look at all this and try to understand: what else am I capable of in my bold experiments? How much more can I fit into my heart and mind before my body stops keeping up with what is happening? I think there is only one way to find out: to try.